What's the best birthday present you ever received?

Celia came out here form my 21st birthday. I had said all i wanted for my birthday was to get piss drunk (duh what else on the big 21) and see those I love. and At the time I had all but Celia and Sara planned. It was Me, Mom, Dad, Kellie, Jen, and Neek. Celia is in AZ and Sara is in Berkely. Sara called and sand happy birthday to me. Celia showed up as a suprise. She had planned it for liek 3 weeks with Jen and Kellie and I cried case I was so happy to have her along with everyone else. it also worked out because she was DD cause she was preggers at the time.

:D

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.  (And still have yet to read most of them.)
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.  (last night & this morning.)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (I've been told I was, but I don't believe him.)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
× I curse sometimes.  (try all the time.)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( it goes on... )

Okay... that topic has nothing to do with this post... I just have it stuck in my head....

I found Alex on myspace... I haven't talked to him in a while... prolly about 6 months now... Fuck he was hot... and damned good sex too. I sent him a message... maybe I'll be getting my booty call back.

1. Name your Location: My house... fontana, CA

2. What year we're you born in? 1985

3. Where we're you born? same place I've been living all my life... Fontana

4. What kind of Toothpaste do you use? Crest whitening expressions the spearment one

5. Any siblings? does Kellie count... yes she does... ONE!

6. What do you like to be called? *shrugs* any variation of the name Jennifer... including, but not limited to, Jenny, Jen, Nenny, Fer... I'm also called Lucie at work...

7. Are you wearing any bracelets? yes... my rock the arts and my support breast cancer research

8. What cell phone company are you with? Nextel

9. Have you ever been to Arkansas? no

10. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? kinda

11. What size shoe do you wear? these are 8.5's...

12. What brand of underwear are you wearing? Fredericks

13. Are you in a Relationship? no

14. If so, who? n/a

15. What color socks did you wear today? white

16. Do you write love letters? no

17. Have you ever gotten or given flowers to someone? No... I won't go there

18. Own a member of the opposite sexes clothing? yes

19. What is your favorite cereal? cinnimon toast crunch

20. Who is the 5th missed call on your phone? Renee

21. Do you like being alone? hell no

22. Where do you want to be at this moment? anywhere but here

23. Where do you work? walgreens... still

24. Can you cook? yes

25. What kind of milk do you drink? whatever is in the fridge

26. Have you ever cliff jumped? nope

27. Ever make snow angels? never been to the snow

28. What are you wearing? yesterdays jeans a tanka nd my spy hoodie...

29. What is your mothers maiden name? none of yoru damned business

30. Would you rather date or be in a serious relationship?
serious relationship

31. What is your favorite number? 13 or 4

32. Are you keeping a secret from anyone? very much so

33. Can you tie a tye? yes

34. What is your favorite day of the week? whatever day I don't have to work or go to school

35. What is romantic to you? being with me. Like just spendign time with me even if it's just at home watching movies. as long as i can feel him with me, his arms around me I'm happy.

36. Have you ever passed out? yes

37. What is your favorite memory? Lala parties

38. Who did you copy and paste this survey from? Serina

39. Do you "pop" your collar? no

40. What is your favorite shape? ??? a triangle

41. What are you listening to? the hum of my computer and the typing I'm doing

42. Are you thinking about someone? yes

43. Where do you want to live? around here... jsut nto in this house

44. Do you have any scars? many

45. Would you call it Love? I want to

46. What oceans have you swam in? Pacific

47. Can you multi-task? always

48. What is your favorite kind of candy? anythign with carmal

49. How many pictures do you have in your bedroom? lots

50. Do you have a Valentine? nope

Just another random thing I found...

How babies are born...from germany

Okay... so here I am wandering around metaquotes because... that's what I do when i have extra time between classes. and i found this... Go look at it... Seriously I was trying to muffle my laughs in my class (I'm done others are not) so as not to disturbe others...

*wanders of singing "da na na na... naaaaaa na na"*

*more giggle fit*

You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter

the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the

stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the

imagery we find here may inspire us or

torment us. Understanding the moon requires

looking within. Our own bodily rhythms are

echoed in this luminary that circles the

earth every month and reflects the sun in its

progress. Listening to those rhythms may

produce visions and lead you towards insight.

The Moon is a force that has legends attached

to it. It carries with it both romance and

insanity. Moonlight reveals itself as an

illusion and it is only those willing to work

with the force of dreams that are able to

withstand this reflective light. Image from:

Stevee Postman. http://www.stevee.com/


Which Tarot Card Are You?
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to tootsie rolls.

I'm serious. I bought a bag of childs play a work yesterday. I'm in heaven.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLE... and anyone else lucky enough to be born in halloween.

I have to work overnigth tuesday night... I'm gonna shoot myself for saying yes. I ahev a midterm in spanish wednesday.

Leave your name and:

1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow apropriate to you
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST

I ended it. I don't know if it's perminant though.

I called up Patrick and told him "rigth now, I don't want to be anything with you." I realised, there are so many guys that can apreciate me.

What bothers me is that he was so... unemotional.

three days ago he was spilling his heart out to me about... nothing. About everything.

It's been so long since we were that comfortable and he still acts so unattached and I htink it bothers me more that he's holding stuff in... ratehr than just saying what he feels.

So here is somethign funny...

http://www.queenofwands.net/comics/20031217.png

I died from this.

So yes... work and school, school and work. God's I hate the school year. Plus my schedual got all fucked up so now I can't go out like I planned. Blah.

I miss ocming home to someone. My house is so inky right now and so bare and I really miss living with Pat just cause I could come home to him.

Kellie and I decided we want to go ack to a year and a half ago. Those days were so fun just cause it was always Patrick, me, Kellie, and Aaron. there was always someone to talk to cause I got along with everyone (obvously) so if Pat and kellie were talking I could talkt o Aaron. Or of Pat and Aaron decided to go and do boy stuff Kiki and I could be stupid together.

I felt so shitty on Saturday. I just was not feeling good physically and emotionally and then Kiki thought I was mad at her and I felt worse cause I wasn't mad at her...
I was Jelous. And i told her... I said, why do all these guys just throw themselves at you and the one guy I want to be with... i can't.

And I just felt so bad cause I souldn't feel liek that. Kellie is one of my best friends and I'm jelous cause she's got a new guy already. (for those of you out of the loop... Kellie and Dustin broke up a few days ago... this was aftre not talkign for liek 2 weeks after a "well we'll try and work things out but if they don't we'll just break up" conversation... Not a lot of people know.) but then I know it's not liek oober serious cause she said she doesn't want a relationship, and she told Denis this.

I don't even know how I got here.... I mean in typing all this... I just don't even pay attention.

On a lighter note... I have a date Saturday Morning for coffe and muffins with a Girl I met on Myspace about two months ago... *squee*

-ANGER SECTION
do you have a quick temper?: I try not to, but sometimes...

what do you do when you're mad?: Usually cry. there is varations; cryign and screaming, crying and breaking down (like I get into a little all), and other such things.

what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: I threw my phone. I put a hole in my wall cause I threw my phone across the room. I was on the phone with Pat. When I told him about that He just smiled and blushed... "that's what you get!" you had to be there.

ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yeah. I still feel bad aout it.

ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: does myself count?

do you curse when you're mad?: Like Serena said... I curse when I'm not angry. when I'm angry it's a unch of jumble with a bunch of cuss words thrown in.


--CRYING SECTION

when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: when Pat and I broke up the *counts on fingers* third time? yeah. i broek down on the floor and cried. The little ball thing I talked about? Yeah, it happened. Renee and Sara had to pick me up. Oh how I love them.

ever cried yourself to sleep?: for weeks after I moved back home.

ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Many times. How I love my lala's

ever cried over the opposite sex?: If I said no I'd be the biggets lier ever.


do you cry when you get an injury?: No. I cried aftre I realised hwo big it was.

do certain songs make you cry?: OH yeah. I just arley was ableto hear 'Angel' by Sarah McLachlin

can you make yourself cry?: Yes

--PAIN SECTION

what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: As odd as this sounds, Shamari's baby passing. This was somethign where I watched Shamari and i thought to myself I don't think i could ever be this strong and it honestly scared the shit out of me. I'venever had a death that close to me that wasn't my grandparents.

what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: starve myself

what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: Given up. Anythine I've ever given up on someone I feel liek I have wronged them.

ever had a painful break up?: hmm... I wonder.


what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: hehehe. physical or mental?

how depressed can you get?: loss of 25 lbs in a month depressed.

do you inflict pain on yourself?: i did.



--HAPPY SECTION

are you normally a happy person?: YES! I liek being happy actually. That's why i liek retail.

what can make you happy?: Lala's. Sex. books. movies. a lot of things.

do you wish you were happier?: No one can ever be too happy.

what makes you the happiest?: I don't know right now. Usually my friends but as much as I hate to say it sometimes they make me depressed. I feel so single when I'm with them sometimes.

is being happy love?: Yes

what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: liek I said above

can music make you happy?: most of the time



--LOVE SECTION

how many times have you had your heart broken?: Countless times... by one person

do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: These questions are starting to become sort of "well no shit" kind of questions

have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: Defenatly

did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: nope. I've only said I love you to one guy.

ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: "well no shit" question.

has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: "well no shit" yeah I live with him for a year. if I didn't love him or hadn't gotten an 'I love you' i highly doubt I owuld have lived with him.

ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: N/A



--HATE SECTION

who do you actually hate?: I don't really hate anyone. I dislike people. I hate Generalizations of people. Liek I hate Bros. But i don't hate anyone in particular.

ever made a hit list?: Nope

have you ever been on a hit list?: I don't think so.

are you a mean bully?: I don't think I'm a bully at all thankyouverymuch.

do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: No.

do you hate George Bush?: Okay i take back my above statement...I HATE BUSH



--SELF-ESTEEM SECTION

is your self-esteem extremely low?: not really

do you believe in yourself?: on and off.

when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: Depends on my mood.

are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: Again with my mood.


ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: Long time ago.

are you happy with who you are?: Right now I am.

do you wish you can be someone else?: Nope... I am Me and I'm content.

This is why I hate organized religion

http://www.365gay.com/newscon05/09/092005coffee.htm

Myspace Sucks ass...

That is all

So my daddy to me to route 66. Saw tons of cars. two of which while whatch the cuusin, he knew the cars. Why? cause he had done wiring on them. My dad kicks ass.

I met Elvira!!!!!!! Okay for thso eof you who havn't been to my house, my dad ♥ elvira so i grew up with shit of hers all aorund the house. And she's there with her bad ass car. *drools* and she's really nice.

I got a picture and it got autographed and my dad got a DVD and got that autographed and then I took a picture of my Dad and her together.

It was actually her alternate personality. But she was nice either way. and fucking beautiful.

I have a digi so i will post the picture of my dad and her and I'll post pictures of Elvira in costume.

It was cool just spending the time with my dad though. ti doesn't happen that offten and that was cool.